April

Hey friends!

What a crazy couple of months.  I'm inspired daily by God's amazing love that pours out like water for me, His crazy grace that doesn't see mistakes or pity, and His goodness... oh my gosh, His goodness.  I'm learning that rules and words and conviction don't really change people as much as I thought it did; it's love, this unconditional love that prods at your conscience to be better because other people deserve that from you.  Because God deserves that from you.  ahh, i'm learning something new everyday.

resurrection

these past few days have left my heart heavy.  i'm overwhelmed by the process of shattering my heart so that it can be rebuilt and made new.  again.  feels like i'm always doing that.  some days, i just want it to stay whole. 

but then i remember.  his glory is to draw us near to him.  god's goal is us.  and my goal is him.

i'm tired of being tired all the time.  i'm tired of being this messy, misshapen form of a soul that is constantly focused on self-preservation.  i'm weary.  my heart and soul are heavy. 

i need a resurrection.

we will see what february brings.  i need the heaviest dose of god's grace i can get, and i need it daily. 

god.  i need you.